I am classified as 100% poverty. I have only Social Security, am 63, on Survivors. I have no Food Stamps. I have less than ,000 a year income.
The cost of living here is very high. SS payments are a little higher here and in CA than in other places due to the high cost of living. I did not know that when I moved here. The high cost of living eats this up. I hate taking charity from food banks and hate food stamps. I did not move here due the pfd or the ss increase. The PFD was a perk but not a motive..Mine was taken from me when I could not pay my bills and could not get work. It was taken when I visited a church near the lawyer who took my PFD. I donated fifty dollars to the church. I will never give another cent to that denomination and it did not imply anything. Although I explained to the court that I could not get work when I was told I would be able to do so, , then I got down sick, and not able to work, have not enough to live on to meet my expenses for a healthy life style (I borrow money often to buy groceries and pay my medical bills, etc. Forget seeing a doctor.) they took myPFD any way. It would amount to about 0 a month. I have nothing but Social Security. I get a small amt of the pfd, very small, very.
There is a reduced fee clinic; however after I pay the initial fee, the labs and the meds, xrays, etc., are extra. It saves nothing. They will only address one health issue at a time and I have many: Spastic colon, probably ulcers,stress,
gall bladder, gerd, eye injury, need glasses, numb toes, cannot perspire,
severe pain all below my waist , ad nauseum. I could not afford the meds I was prescribed lst time I went. I cannot get out of the apartment without someone stealing from me, comes in and steals, has a key. It makes me crazy. I must rush and rush to get back here, drives me insane.
Steal food, steal sentimental things, have been concentrating on things my daughter gave me. My things have sentimental value to me, all of them.
What I have left , what they did not steal from me outside of this state, rip off, get for nothing….much of which was expensive and which I paid hard earned cash from my paycheck and savings….the rest I had paid at least part of…they stole from me for little of nothing…criminals ran me out of my home competing for jobs.I have no intention of returning. I am not making out a will. Why? I have nothing. If I had something, I would get it now. I like money, things, I am the one with the cause for lawsuits. I also will not marry due to this.
I have been denied legal assistance my entire life when others would be filthy rich. I have no , absolutely no, intention of marrying. None. Not until I am a free person with choice in my life and there will be prenuptuals. Many.
I always ate a healthy diet, exercised, went to the gym, or biked and walked, sometimes all. I did smoke off and on due to breathing second hand smoke on the job causing me to want to smoke at home. I also had a lifetime membership in Weight Watchers, which helped me to be healthy, and
which I thoroughly enjoyed. It was the best program I ever used to be healthy.
I do not like being overweight at all, and it helps nothing whatsoever. Yet. I do not care. Why. I cannot go much of any where. I cannot visit churches and I am not wanted. I will not go to the one I was in. I cede them nothing but lawsuits. I eat because it fills my emptiness. I have music. I like the taste of food. When I have food , I eat. When I don’t, I don’t. Working kills me too. I am not depressed. I am a violated, abused battered female who has never had rights. They will persecute my husband and my son who were not the problem.Take my money for them, or vice versa. He is dead.
I worked for the Deparment of Family Services for six years. I was battered four times due to that by strangers.No more of that. Back to poverty. I worked in health care, went to college for years, honors. I worked in health care, then back to poverty due to my extreme old age, I guess. LOL. I am in poverty. I am ill. I am not going to try to work again. I prefer death. I cannot take any more of it. I never was a very tough person. I am a female.
Each toughening up I have had has left me with more severe insomnia and
bloody nightmares. It is not worth it. After mydivorce in a criminal community, I ended up in the direst poverty although I had graduated from college with honors. I was not allowed to work in my profession, my divorce was prearranged. I did not know that. It was all set up, waiting. I came out with nothing but a student loan and my daughter. My son enlisted to work. That was not, those things, were not our plans. This has caused me no amount
of problems in feelings of insecurity, fear, worry, which will not go away. Distrust of the system is a way of life. I am not a criminal, have no personality disorder of any sort. My major crime is being female, and very much alone but for my children.
